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[05 Feb 2005|04:41pm] woooww..lol havent updated this thing in like a thousand years. soo nothing really has been going on...just lots of soccer and all that fun stuff soo my birthday is on thursday! im excited....and *crosses fingers* i get my license..!! yah..kk well i will update this thing later <333 4 --> falling

[21 Dec 2004|02:18pm] Sometimes I lose track of who i am. I forget that I'm all grown up now. I'm not the little girl with pretty curls that used to hold daddy's hand when she crossed the street. I no longer beg to have a box of animal crackers at the grocery store or ride in the shopping cart. I don't dream of going to the zoo or cuddle with a big pile of stuffed animals when I'm sad. I don't color outside the lines or make elephants hot pink. I don't play outside anymore, coloring with side walk chalk or practice jumping rope. I don't eat peanut butter and jelly every single day for lunch. I don't watch saturday morning cartoons or have a bedtime of 8 o'clock. I don't play in the leaves or the snow or take afternoon naps. And when I think about it, it's sad. I miss being that little girl + in a weird way I'm still her. I still have the pretty brown curls and big bright blue eyes and I still love the color pink, but I miss being carefree. I miss watching the same Disney movie two or three times in a row. I miss thinking that when i grew up I'd find a prince charming and he'd take me to his castle and we'd live happily ever after. I miss coloring outside the lines and not having to be perfect. I miss getting excited over a new box of crayons and a fresh coloring book. I miss being so brutally honest and no one would care. When we were little we all dreamt of being older and growing up and it's sad that sometimes we wish we were 4 and 5 years old again, where a pretty pink bandaid could fix anything and you never knew of a broken heart. Treasure every moment that you have because you can't go back. Enjoy days with your friends + warm summer nights where the stars shine so bright. I might be grown up + not as naive but I'll never stop being that cute little pint sized girl that was never afraid to dream. 5 --> falling

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[09 Dec 2004|09:11pm] Every guy has a purpose in your life, some more important than others, but all necessary as a part of growing up. ♥There will always be crushes... the ones you know you will never have, but are satisfied just seeing 5 lockers away and knowing that if you "wanted to" you could talk to them (but deep down inside, you know that you never will). If they are sick, you feel ill; if they are sad, you are depressed; and you feel that your life will never be complete without them. Every girl has a crush... there's always someone you can't have. ♥The first boyfriend, the one from grade 6, what was him name again? You pretend you're over him, and that you were a long time ago, but he'll have a place in your heart forever. That little kiss on the cheek meant more than you think. Sometimes, when you're lying in bed at night, you might feel the tingle, the way you remembered it from so long ago. You may look back and laugh, but you'll always thank him for being the sweet little jerk he was. ♥Your best male friend will always love you, admire you and will feel that way forever. Boyfriends come and go, but he's always stuck around. He's your shoulder to cry on, and a hug when you need it. You enjoy yourself with him, and you're never in an awkward situation. This is a different kind of love, a special kind. Cherish this dude forever, he's changed your life. ♥Soul mates are usually found later in life, even though I believe you come across many during your high school years. These people are not love at first sight... you grow to love them, and it's usually through their personality. The difference between them and your friends is that you can feel that special spark when they look in your eyes, the same one you feel when you see a crush, but he's not a player... or super good looking... just "special." You might go out and break up, stay together forever or never even kiss, but these are the perfect boyfriends, the kind that will bring you flowers, open doors for you, anything you want. They are the perfect combination of friends and crushes. 3 --> falling

[04 Dec 2004|01:45pm] omg. this week has been the worst week..of my life. end of story. 9 --> falling

[28 Nov 2004|03:43pm] the past few days.. friday: got up at 5:30 to go shopping..i know im ccrazyy. it was soo crowded and stuff..and by 11 i was like..omg.i.want.to.go.home.lol..then i went to the movies with some people from the pool and saw the increibles..i feel alseep through the movie though..oppsies. and then we went to applebees and i got made fun of the whole night.lol..but what else is new. theeeennn..i went to lexis and hung out then went to brians house then went back to lexis house and slept over Saturday: went home and watched a movie cuz i didnt feel too good. then got ready for the football game and went to work the barbque. it was a fun night..excpet that dublin lost..but its totally cool cuz at least they got that far..and it was uh..FREEZING.after went back to lexis and then went home..talked online for a little while then watched manon fire..that is succh a good movie..kinda intense though.i was like oh goodness. finally went to bed at like 12 and then slept in till 12 the next morning..i know..gross. yah right now i dont feel too good soo im in like a horrible mood..its lovely. neways..im going to lay down again. buh bye. oh yah..this week is gonna kill me. we have three soccer games and i have a tennis tourment obtw..i made soccer captain for soccer..i was happy. kk later gator. 7 --> falling

[25 Nov 2004|08:41am] HAPPY THANKSGIVING yah soo today i have to drive to ukia which is like 2 hours away and it is this little town with NOTHING to do. last yr on christmas..me and my mom were soo bored the only store open was Biglots..so we spent like a half hour there but believe me...there are so PRETTY WERID people that shop at biglots on christmas..i was like..uhm mom.? lol soo yah i have to go there =/ last night was fun.. went to the JV/Varisty boys bball game aganist the alumni..soo funny..like half the guys were heka old with like beer bellies and stuff i was like oh goodness. then i hung out with ale and lidnsey and we went to RedRobin then came back to my house and watched HARRY POTTER..such a good movie. soo tomorrow morning im going shopping at 5:30! i didnt even know that there was 5:30 in the morning..way too early. but still its SHOPPING!..i knoe im turning into a girl more and more.lol soo yah i havent hung out with lauren and lexi in soo long and its sad! and im like dieing without briana...and shes not coming back till sunday! im like wow there.. oh yah..so i was with my swim coach last night at the basketball game and hes like...wow alex..did u use all ur moms bleach?? *hes talking about my hair* for those who know who brandon is..i think he enjoys making fun of me. espically when he asked infront of the whole swim team if the lights in my head were on..i was like..*oooouuuuucccchhhhhh* but then of course i laughed for like 492849 mins. kk comment with nething..im borred! 10 --> falling

[22 Nov 2004|06:40pm] you sit and think..and wonder if he can see it in yours eyes Can he tell that u love him?..that theres nothing you would rather think about then the times you and him were together.. can he see the tears?..cause they are sure there.. deep down..sure enough, along with the pain and the loneiness that you bury so deep down ..hoping no one can tell.. sometimes you would give anything imaginable to be able to make him understand.. to have a chance to tell him how much he means to you..to be able to feel complete. but you SMILE through it all. you talk like you used to be friends forever.. and every time he smiles at you ur heart melts and a tiny little bit of HOPE sparks.. ..but you crush it before it reaches the surface, before it can give you away.. and you hug him goodbye like its nothing..when all you want to do is hold on to him forever.. but you smile and walk away..then your sad on the way home because you know it will never happen because try as u might..you cannot make someone love you..sometimes you just have to let them be. 9 --> falling

[31 Oct 2004|03:06pm] soo.. this weekend was oh so fun. saturday: went to sac. for a soccer torument..played two games then went to dinner and totally died cuz i was laughing soo hard...then after me moreen steph and briana all went back to moreens room and hing out and told stories..pretty fuunny. sunday:had another game.. but right now it hurts to move..like every muslce hooked onto my spine and everym uscle in my legs are dead...im like..uhm ok this hurts.lol soo rigght now im gonna go to brianas and go sit in the hot tub cuz i know that tomorrow im gonna be in soo much pain.lol oh by the way..happy halloween..it doesnt even seem like halloween cuz usually im like..YAY free candy and now im like..uhm no thanks.lol but yah...pictures are coming soon..just too lazy to walk to my bag and get my camera cuz just to stand up will be like a 3 min prosess... 7 --> falling

[28 Oct 2004|10:25pm] ok soo..ladder 49 has to have been the best movie of all time. mabey its just me that thinks this because i wanna be a firefighter when i get older...but omg ..sooo good. the movie makes me wanna grow up right now..get outta high school..go to college..then go become a firefighter...everyone probably looks at me and is like..yah..shes gonna be looking more at the other fire fighters then at the fire..but just watch!.lol agh i cannot wait! 4 --> falling

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